Both/And: A Pisces Season Tale

3.19.2023

This is a weird time of year when I and many I know are experiencing grief & loss anniversaries. While we're also excited to feel the warmer weather getting closer. More both/and themes of Pisces Season.

I'm thankful for the energy this time of year because my loved ones and I can BOTH be sad about our loss AND celebrate the good parts of knowing that soul.

It was the 7th anniversary of my brother's passing, and it never feels normal. We're further away from our loss but also further away from our time with my brother on the earth.

My mom and I always try to do something on the day of his passing, which always includes a good meal! This year we found a super authentic Mexican restaurant in Colorado Springs; they even had regulars. We stopped at Wal-Mart on the way and bought more than we went for and had fun telling stories and laughing on the long drive. 
And then we went and walked among "The Gods" and the gift shop at The Garden of the Gods; Colorado is such a beautiful state. 

I continue to live in the space of Both/And. There were many successes this season, but it was far from perfect. And I'm continually entertained by how many cheesy cliches in life stem from the truth of our physical experience.

Life happens when we're making plans. You can't have light without dark. It's a constant balancing act. Just keep swimming.

I'm practicing excepting that I'll never "be on top of everything" or "caught up" because these concepts are fleeting; they're different forms of reaching for "perfection."

When I'm not as busy, my house is more picked up, the laundry gets done, and I post regularly. I get busy with incredible opportunities and experiences, the house isn't as picked up, and I'm not as active on my socials. The universal joke is that true "balance" will rarely be achieved. Do things need to be perfect, or do you want to enjoy your life? 

Loved ones in spirit constantly send us messages not to sweat the small stuff and enjoy the ride. There are so many stories of souls on their deathbeds or crossing into the spirit world and realizing how much was wasted on arbitrary stress.

There are dishes in my sink, the laundry needs to be done, and the to-do list is growing. But that doesn't take away from my experiences that happened around that. It doesn't take away the great memories with my mom. It doesn't diminish the new connections I made this season or lessen the impact of the community I'm getting to be a part of.

I'm happy to share that taking my own advice has been working out! I leaned in, held my necessary boundaries, and remained open to what came my way.

For so long, I was a tool and modality collector. The risk of a singular focus of learning and collecting, you forget to actually use all the tools and knowledge you've acquired. Getting reconnected to my favorite tools and actually using them has been the most beneficial while navigating these ever-changing waters. What are your favorite tools that help you during your journey?

Check out my Pisces Season Reel on Instagram.